Patching

Back at Flagler when i was studying for the Deaf Education Career, one of the things they made sure to specifically mention was that when a deaf child is diagnosed, the parents often go through the seven stages of grieving, since the deaf diagnosis often comes with very minimal warning signs, especially early on as one is falling in love with their newborn baby.

Well, I have come to really know that it doesn't apply just to the deaf diagnosis, but to all diagnosis that has little warning sings.

Since Savannah's diagnosis of Glaucoma, we have had to undergo several surgeries, and daily fights over eye drops (which we think sting her eyes). We have been dealing with that as the issues have been coming.

But we are also supposed to be patching. We are supposed to be patching the good right eye in order to get the left eye to increase in strength now that it is actually usable and she can see out of it. The problem is that Savannah hates it, and fights it constantly whenever I attempt to get her to wear it. The constant fight over it wears me down as a mom and so we really haven't been patching at all...

I have come to realize though that it isn't just her fighting me over it, as she would learn to accept it if we kept after her over it enough.... but I also have been fighting it a lot. With just the eye drops and surgeries, it is easy to forget, or maybe the better word is deny, the fact that she has glaucoma and a lazy eye. With the big giant patch over her eye though there is no mistaking it.... and no denying the fact that our little girl doesn't see like all the other precious little girls she knows.

....And that just breaks the heart.

And I have looked up the seven stages of grieving..... this stage is only the second on the list..... If it has taken this long to get only to the second stage....