Tired

I am in a complaining spirit this evening. I apologize as I don't even like the complaining, but I am just in a mood. I am tired of being sick. It has been a month now of non-stop sick in our house and I am just sick of it. I know cause the first round of sickness went though the house right before Easter. That was a month ago. Only a month ago......

I am sick of having to fight the battles. The battles that come along with three year olds. The battles against lazy eyes, glaucoma, tooth decay. The battle against pee (If you have ever potty trained you know what I am talking about.... If you haven't, trust me you don't want to know.)The battles against keeping up with the fight against germs invading and seeming to always lose. The battle of sleeping through the night..... not sure I have had one of those in a few years now..... not sure I am ever going to get that again.

There are nights like tonight where I, yes I the natural kid lover, no longer wishes to be locked in this mommy life. Where I could take the nice long bath without the interruption of kids pounding on the door wanting to go potty cause they are curious what Mom could possibly be doing by herself. Or where I could just sew, or you know breathe without feeling like another demand is about to be sent my way. Or just the idea of being with my husband and getting two sentences of grown-up talk in before interruptions. Oh, those single gals and kid less couples just don't know how good they have it. I should know cause I didn't have a clue back then.

Then I have to admit, I would have missed all the I love you mommy, and the smiles, and giggles and laughs that make it worth it..... If you can survive long enough to get that far.


*****I just spent the last hour or two, in the quiet of the night, cleaning the kitchen, picking up the toys, and just attempting to organize. It's amazing how it lifts the spirits, Isn't it? Sometimes it just helps to start working. I am still tired of all my battles, especially with the sicknesses lately, but life is better with the house cleaner.